Om Sai Ram!
If we know Baba,we know the two vital principles that we are required to follow inorder to really surrender to Him completely,that is Trust and Patience. Baba has always preached to all those who love him to always trust and to be patient. While I assumed,I had both and that's when I was tested.
A couple of months back,I had to go to Delhi for some work and then from there I had work at Chennai. Since I had to stay at the latter for a couple of days,I had booked some random hotel while I was at Delhi only, Once I reached my hotel at Chennai,I was astonished to see a small Sai Baba Mandir/Temple at the hotel's entrance and the hotel was also named Sai Residency, which I failed to notice when I was booking. So,I was a little relieved that I was at a safe place and Baba will take care of me.
The next morning, I left for my work and it was very important for me that I get this done in the said two days. As soon as I got into my auto rickshaw I kept seeing Baba wherever I went,be it in vehicles or any posters. It felt as though He was accompanying me, assuring that my work will be done. You wont believe,when I was inside this office,I playfully told Baba, "Baba, You kept coming with me,why couldnt I see You here"? Immediately,I found a very tiny picture of Him inside that place, That gave me alot of reassurance that my work will be successful.
After this,I travelled to another office for another work,if I have to explain more clearly,only if I finish my documentation at this place,I would be able to proceed further with my work. So,when I was at this place,unfortunately the staff told me that I can get my documentation done only by 4 pm the next day.Which means,what I had never expected to have happened,did happen. So,it means,I will not be able proceed any further and come to Chennai again next week. I was extremely disappointed. I had told Baba,"Baba,why would you do this to me,I had prayed all this while only for this and why did'nt you make it happen"?,just like any other ungrateful person.
In despair,I got an auto,just to go back to my hotel,I again kept seeing Baba everywhere. Infact, the auto I was travelling in also had a Baba's picture.But, I purposely never acknowledged and behaved like a two year old who's angry at their Mom.In simple words,I was mad at Baba.
Then,once I reached my hotel,something struck me,that I should go check this office where I was supposed to go after my documentation. So,I went in and told them about this problem of mine. To my surprise,they were fine without the documentation also.
They said I can finish my work here and whatever is pending,I could submit it the next day once I receive them. I was overjoyed and could not believe what had just happened.
Everyday I receive Baba's message through an Youtube channel I had subscribed to,just like this one.And,that day's message was "All I need is your Trust".
One can imagine the guilt I had went through after this. Baba had never stopped working for me,He was everywhere,helping me and guiding me. I had failed the test of trust and patience. Though my brain said,"I trust You",when put in difficult situations,I was scared that I might fail. Neither, did I trust Him truly,nor,was I patient enough.
Maybe He was teaching me a lesson,to practice what He says. To not doubt it and to not question Him. It is easy to get carried away and our faith on Him starts fading away or shaken when we encounter certain things,but that's when it should get stronger,that if we've told Baba,He's going to take care of it.
Keep in mind, Baba is not going to listen to anything and everything and all your demands will not be fulfilled.Its only because He has got other beautiful things planned for you. In conclusion,to all those who are reading this,never ever doubt Him. Always trust and be patient. Good day!