By reading many of the devotees experiences I understood that baba takes a tough test of his devotees.In every experience I have read,Baba used to come well disguised & the devotees failed to recognise him.I used to always smile and say this in my mind - "please come to me,I wont ever fail to recognise you and I dont need anything from you but only want to hug your legs and cry.After that if even my wishes are not fulfilled I am willing to die happily".Anytime I see a beggar approaching me or a person in need of help or a hungry cow,cat,dog searching for food,I used to feel that this might be BABA in disguise trying to test me and I made sure that the want for that moment is fulfilled.Some beggars also took benefit of the situation by asking one after another thing,I dont blame them because it was my extreme urge to be in the good books of BABA. I work in Bangalore and left my previous job due to certain things that didn't go along with my moral values and I had to work in a sales company that paid me 25 K lesser to what I was getting earlier,due to less options available I had to accept the offer half heartedly.It used to take 12 hours from the time I leave the house for work to the time I reach back home,daily I was traveling by motorcycle from Bannerghatta to btm to Sarjapur through silk board during the peak hours (people stayed in Bangalore will know how much congested this route is).We had daily target and the job was hectic,I had a lot of personal issues and along with that this strenuous & hectic routine.Everyday I used to ask BABA to help me out but somewhere I used to end up consoling myself that this is just a phase of life & I need to go through it. Finally the day arrived.I Normally keep my wallet in the back pocket of my pant but just to make myself more comfortable from the last 1 week before this incident I started keeping it inside the front pocket of my bag,I dont know what made me do it.It was a thursday I wasn't able to achieve my daily target and had to compensate by giving more login hours.While coming back from office I literally broke down on the way.While riding bike I said to Baba "so many problems I have in my life and if you cant remove the problems then for once please allow me to fall on your feet and cry.Cant you see what I am going through,am i nothing to you"(I always fight with Baba like a kid fights with his mother or father & the anger will only be there for a short time,eventually I will go back to BABA apologizing🙂).The time when I said these things,tears were rolling down my cheeks and I was riding down the last flyover near to HSR layout.At that place to avoid the heavy traffic,on the main road few commuters take a diversion and travel on the road parallel to the main road.After travelling on that road for some short distance they get connected back to the main road to get ahead in the line.The moment I took a turn and entered a lane,I saw a thin,tall old man standing beside the road and lifting his hand for a lift.It was getting dark and I just saw him for one second so I cant recall the face and he didn't look like BABA.He had dark complexion and was wearing a white kurta,pajama & a Muslim cap.I slowed down my bike and just pointed my hand towards the front tyre of bike gesturing that I am only traveling for a very short distance(I would have stayed on that road for hardly 100-200 metres).In return the old man also pointed his hand towards the front of the bike gesturing the same and at that moment It stuck my mind that even my wallet was in the bag and will it be an insult to move the bag to the front as it might show that I find him untrustworthy.I didn't stop my bike but I slowed down and was thinking that what if he thinks that to make him more comfortable I just moved it to front,who knows it might be BABA too.All these thoughts had passed my head within just two seconds so I took a u turn and started riding to the place where I saw him,while riding back I kept on looking at the bikes and autos that came from the opposite direction just to make sure that he hasn't boarded any one of them.After reaching I didn't find him there so I checked out both the sides of the corner road too but wasn't able to see him there too.
Now returning back I was thinking it hardly took me two seconds to come back and I didn't see him on any of the coming vehicles nor even on the adjacent road,even after indicating that I am traveling for a very short distance he still insisted for a lift.While waiting at the signal I thought if the vehicle stood beside me has a BABA'S picture then that old man was BABA only,I turn my head and found BABA'S pic in that auto.I still convinced myself that it might be a mere coincidence as BABA'S pictures are there on many vehicles.Then I said to myself if I see BABA'S pic on my phone right now I can confirm it was BABA himself,while checking the phone I found three unread Whatsapp msgs on my phone.One was a picture of BABA sent by a school friend on school group and second one a picture of BABA sent by my mother, third one is another picture of BABA sent by my father (My school friend & I send BABA'S picture to the school group on every thursday and I even share BABA'S pic with my mother on every thursday.That was the first day when even my father had sent BABA'S pic).Now I was sure that it was BABA & started sobbing like a kid,my tears flowed uncontrollably.I realised I had lost it as I failed to recognise him,my ego of never failing was shattered by failing in the test.I realised that BABA will give the toughest test,BABA knew that I always suspected the people asking lifts as I used to feel some of them might be pickpocketers.BABA knew I wont fail if he comes as a begger or in the form of an animal so he knew my weakness and played the role where it would be hard for me to win.BABA only made preparations by changing my habit of keeping the wallet in my bag or else I would have definitely stopped if the wallet wasn't in my bag. This happened in the month of feb 2019 ,Many more experiences are still there to be shared.Whenever I get time as per BABA'S will I will share it with my fellow devotees.
May BABA'S grace be there on everyone.Om Sai Ram 🙏😇